i dont wanna sleep!!!!

i dont wanna sleep!! if i can stay awake, every night, i will!
i dont care!! i dont wanna sleep!!

everytime i do, i dream about him.
when i wake up, i 'see' him.
see, how cant i be more stressed out if everyday there's him.
i dont want to!!
who wud even like me 'seeing' him, except him ofcourse, he'll be happy.
but thats just not right.


i dont wanna sleep, coz i dont wanna dream of u anymore!!
i dont wanna sleep, coz i dont wanna think of u when i wake up!!
coz this is not right!!
if it still goes this way, it will never be right!!
i wish this can be ok, but it isn't. not now. not now!!
will it be right later?
i dont know.
do i wanna keep this feeling and just see where time takes me?
or
do i wanna leave it all behind and forget about u?

i dont know.
i dont wanna think about it.

or i do?


i hate having this feeling.




xxxxxx
-anita


PS. i will miss u, my poledancer. :)